Sad Today

I had to put my cat who turned 16 this month to sleep today. It was one of the hardest but easiest decisions to make. If that makes sense. She has been sick for about 3 weeks. The vet thinks it was probably cancer since all her other test came out fine. I thought she was going to make it. After a week of not eating she started eating again with a steroid shot. But Tuesday afternoon after I took her in for fluids she wouldn't eat again. So I postponed my trip to China (flight was yesterday) to care for her. I just couldn't leave her. The thought of her dying while I was gone was eating me up. So of course K had to go so he was not here. He said that Bitzi was a friend to him when no one would be. He was very sad he could not be here. My sister and her partner were on a staycation thank goodness! So they came down and went with me. I stayed with her while they did it. Hard of course it was. But my touch and voice were there for her during her last moment. I put her under a gigantic forsythia bush. She loved that bush and when I would let her out this past week that is where she would go. Bitzi was a great cat and friend. The stories she could tell! Like K said always there when no one else would be. She will be deeply missed.